Monday, October 22, 2007

too good to be true....

Assalamualaikum....

I always longed to pen few words since I left this hobby almost a decade...

the only difference is that, this time, my thoughts can read and reached by everybody...which means..i'll be sharing the dark secrets of me...till i found the light that brought me up to where I am..BUT please don't think that I have perfect life...the pain is always there...

I am a dreamer eversince I was a child...never thought of having such complicated life (as what is now). I still remember I want to become a princess (and acting like one..), pretending to be beautiful and sweet, I like to dance (especially ballet although I never attend any ballet class), talking alone (most kids do this). As life goes on..and I moved from punky brewster era(remember this cartoon?) to a (freak?..) . No idea of what is happening to myself, i just follow the flow, trying to find my own personality (with no destiny). Funny to think how my evolution stage taken place each day with one day 'I want to be superb' and the next day 'back-to-normal'.

Is that normal?..I don't know if any of you out there facing the same experience...i collected a lot of bitter memories, which supposedly be left behind and gone with wind. The memories are like curse and poison to my soul, I wish I could remove it, but the harder I try, the worst it becomes. I am a self-healer, I'll swallow the pain and cure my soul at the same time (sounds like myth huh?). But I don't want my blog becomes a limbo to your lost souls..let this blog let u share your dark secrets as well so that we can hear each other deeply. The place that can never be reached can now be heard, seen and most important...be touched.

By sharing and learning each others experience and crazy moments (please don't be shy..), we are actually surfacing our true personality and can mirror each other of mistakes that we have and will be done. Let us learn a good lesson to make a better self for the people around us..I thought I was better than anyone else..but HELL NO! I am a serial offender in the circle of life..I wonder how could that happen eventhough you been caught all the time..

5 comments:

Sharmila said...

Warriors of light frequently ask themselves what they are doing here.
Very often they believe their lives have no meaning.
That is why they are warriors of light.
Because they make mistakes.
Because they ask questions.
Because they continue to look for a meaning.
And, in the end, they will find it.


Paulo Coelho

mamalove said...

i hope i can be one of them...for i'm still searching for the meaning of life..

Sharmila said...

Life is like a blanket too short. You pull it up and your toes rebel, you yank it down and shivers meander about your shoulder; but cheerful folks manage to draw their knees up and pass a very comfortable night. Marion Howard

Sharmila said...

I know this may not be the right place to comment on this but I am just downright angry at the non challant attitude of parents now days.

Nurin's case has yet to be solved and there is already another child missing in Georgetown who was also allowed to venture out alone at a horrid 9pm to a nearby night market! Come on parents buck up. Why is it that no lesson has been learnt? Why is it so difficult for parents to understand that it is no longer safe to let our children especially girls to wonder on thier own day or night. When are parents going to realise that they owe a duty of care towards their child. can this be termed as or sheer ignorance? What is the point of sobbing after your child is already taken by strangers. heven't the parents ever heard of the term prevention is better than cure. Please stop taking pride in saying that our child has ventured out alone before and has returned home safe. This 'tak kisah' attitude is the main reason predators are able to take off with children.

Please don't get me wrong. I sympathise with parents who have to work thus can't keep tab of thier kids. However my anger is directed at parents who are able to escort a child but yet take no initiative to do so. Look at the cases of Nurin & Rekha. Their parents were at home, gave them money to but something from the night market but the thought of accompanying the child never crossed their mind. They shirked their responsibility and assumed that another older sibling shall do the neccessary task of playing escort. What can another helpless child do if god forbid the dangerous need arises? Even adults panic when faced with danger let alone a child (irrespective of age,body size & height).

It truly angers me that these young children have to suffer such horrid and tragic ends for no fault of them. Please bear in mind they are children and we are adults for a reason. A child has no or little forsight of danger. They are not aware of the dangers that lurk beyond the walls of their house in the big bad world outside. We as adults and parents we know how dangeruos and cruel the world outside can be so its our duty to protect our children. DON'T SHIRK OFF THAT RESPONSIBILITY SO EASILY!

mamalove said...

i agree with you...i am a parent as well...responsibility comes in a great term now. not just simply having children and let them explore the world..alone..i thought life can be as simple as mine when i was at those unfortunate girls..something wrong with our thinking now..actually Allah wants us to realise that each day we keep forgetting our children (especially working parents)..we only will take care of them in the weekend (only if we have our free weekend). children are growing with numerous knowledge (thru the tv plus our behaviour), of course we can't control their mind but we have to check their action whether they are young or old enough to take care of themselves..never ever trust the people around them (but never say u don't trust your child). children are fragile to the world..if the world look safe the will wander..but please bear in mind..our world is not a safe place anymore...if u can remember a song by madonna 'this used to be my playground'. so just think what will happen in the next 10, 20 years..