passing the days without hello..

hi..just me catching up..how long ye i've been lost in time again. supposedly i'd be writing bout all the marginal changes in life but somehow i just load up a big gap coz my life is lil' bit tumbling up side down...oh pls dun say bibik's not around..what a lame excuse!

laziness, not the real excuse, it was actually me who so occupied with all the responsibilities (yo la tu..) from a wife to a mother to a student to a daughter to a sister to a friend to a whatever role i've to become. but i know i'm not the only one who having these roles..so i don't want to blow up the issue...it's just i'm getting too old..or probably this 'sickness' makes me pretty blur with life...i guess.

i just realize that time is not my best friend..not just lately but all the time..probably because i didn't manage it well, so it just drifts and leaves me for whatever reason...or maybe i didn't say hello to time or greet it well..it's like i don't appreciate it? never...time is always so precious it's just jealous of me and make me feel guilt everytime it passed away...

i guess i got to do something..but there's always something else in between...maybe time will come and give me the cooling off period which probably a comma (not that stroke coma) or a totally period, hope it's a comma..so that i could continue with this journey of life with my precious and watch 'em grow and listen to their grumbles, laughter and tears...Please Allah..let me walk with time hand in hand...as I grew older..Amin.

an appreciation dinner for the guardian of my angels

Bibik is going back again...but this time back for good. I plead several times to stay with benefit of lucrative pay...however, nobody can't buy love and happiness, so there goes my reliable and swift assistant...and me...huhuhu becoming the desperate housewife, AGAIN..

so, as a token of appreciation, we brought her to Chili's...to answer her question.."Chilis tu apa bu?". i know it doesn't mean please bring me to Chili's but I have the purpose to bring her there as a farewell dinner. Coincidently hubby won a prize in the golf tournament that morning so at night he suggested to take us out...but of course that golf money is not being used to buy dinner, he just so happy that he wanted to take us to dinner. So, i remembered bout that Chili's thing..so there we went..

some pictures to show..what a yummy night!

THE PEOPLE...

THE FOOD...

private open house

event ni memang wajib every 2nd raya where all my siblings, mom, dad, the in laws, the nieces and nephews gathered kt rmh kecik* aku di balakong...tahun ni aku masak soto ayam & rendang ayam ngan nasi impit...dessert plak kuih sejuk n fruit cocktail...air bandung sarbat

ni saje je nk tunjuk carpet baru aku tajaan J****...tima kasih la ye bg kapet pink tu...cantik & yg paling buat aku terkejut beruk ialah harganye...mak oii..pucat muka makcik aritu dgr (4 figures u..). aku cuma usha2 je ngan hubby, tetiba tokey dia yg hensem tu kata "ha..lipat je"...mcm x caya..tu la namanye rezeki rimau...alhamdulillah!tp sbl tu aku dah beli 2 kapet yg diberi diskaun melebihi 90%...

tahun ni kuih raya 3 jenis je...yg lain kerepek n kacang...tah nape tahun ni cam x minat lg nk berkuih2..kek apatah lagi...

*ralat:"rmh kecik" tu maknanya jamban kan (ada ke patut!)...so sebenarnya "rumah saya yang bersaiz kecil", harap maklum.

sisterz in pink..

ini adalah gambar2 masa raya ke2 kt kampung belah mak...ala kt kajang je, itulah kampung kami...ni lps dah lalok menjengah lebih 4 buah umah...perut pon dah mintak ampon...

pose camni susah nk dapat especially bila secara kebetulan kami 3 sisterz ni pilih pink as our raya 2009 theme. so sape yg lebih cantik? (ada jugak yg buat tanduk tu dlm umur2 camni..)

ni loving couple yg pose maut especially adik aku tu..control lawa memanjang..x leh tggl bedak dan lip glossnye..

raya in pink...pink in raya (special edition)

a long pause...

can guess from the title..yup it's gonna be a long pause for me to pen again. i decided to take time off for a while to give way to some unwanted vibes around me. i hate to write bout sad story...nope that's not the way i'm gonna describe my self to anybody. just to say that i'm approaching my 7th anniversary with loving hubby. thank you for your love, kind and patience. i know it's not that easy to live with a haywire person like me..but you just get through everything..yeah like a saying "against all odds". for those who purposely or accidently bump into my blog...please don't be dissapointed with my temporary departure. i'll be back once i bounced again...i hate to do this..writing's been my passion but i don't like to throw everything in blog...i love my privacy very much as much i love to be normal and serene again.

till we meet again... we've only just begun..

one day in your life

One day in your life
You'll remember a place
Someone touching your face
You'll come back and youll look around, you'll . . .
One day in your life
You'll remember the love you found here
You'll remember me somehow
Though you dont need me now
I will stay in your heart
And when things fall apart
You'll remember one day . . .
One day in your life
When you find that youre always waiting
For a love we used to share
Just call my name, and I'll be there
You'll remember me somehow
Though you dont need me now
I will stay in your heart
And when things fall apart
You'll remember one day . . .
One day in your life
When you find that youre always lonely
For a love we used to share
Just call my name, and I'll be there

going backward...

Finally, last week i managed to watch '13 going on 30' starring Jennifer Garner (Alias) and Mark Ruffalo (Just Like Heaven). It was definitely a sweet story of friendship and 'can't wait to be thirty'. So what so great bout being 30? i'm in my early 30's and actually i fully awared that my looks improved a lot compared being 13 and 20's. Probably due to stable hormones of the body and another thing..when at 30's you tend to be backward again, i mean be younger than our real age. infact now collagen is my soul food (the first to be taken before breakfast) and i tried so many fashions to suit my life, all brands of cosmetics and act like a teenage girl. The only difference between 13 and now was that i have more purchasing power and that makes me really indulge in own world. however, as far as i can remember being 13 was that it was a transformation phase of me, yup...

1. being transferred from girls school to co-ed school

i was from Convent Klang school wearing pinafore to school and shorts during PE. then suddenly abah was transferred to Kuala Terengganu and me, the protester of all mankind had to lure to the situation and my new school was a co-ed (mix gender), just imagine..walking past classes with boys staring at this 'who was this weirdo new school girl?'.felt like screaming...anyway I was clad to baju kurung from that day until form 5 (bye2 pinafore and my blue shorts)

2.first crush to a boy..

ha..ha..ha..he was my class monitor..i found him quite cute but that was just a crush...and then more series of crush...can't help it all girls do that what..

3.the singer is my classmate and dear friend

azian mazwan sapuwan of Bintang RTM..yeah my sisters kept telling me that i was going to be friends with her if i moved to KT...i said "ye la tu"..and the first day in class, the prophecy was true..she was sitting 2 chairs infront of me..what a coincidence

4.sea was my playground...

i love sea and KT was so near to the South China Sea..i can go there everyday but unfortunately hazardous for bathing...never mind..i got all there..the taste of the salt and keropok lekor..yummy. by the way my school was at the coastal line...which made me look like an overburned toast bread..yup that was my ugly days

5.got my best buddy next door..

amar and ata...the best friends during my life in KT..yup me & amar had once taste the water of the dark ravine due to cat and dog chase incident...yucks!

6.met my dream group and idol..

Kumpulan Gersang was so top that time...i remembered seeing them backstage (thanks to abah 'all access' to every concert we went). cannot believe that we really shake their hands, took pictures and the best of all i able to touch (salam la) my dream guy a.k.a idol-Acis the baby face keyboardist of Gersang...yuhuu...and got pictures with him too...

7.got my first camera

i still remember it was a Kodak, mak & abah gave it for my 13th birthday and it was purchased during our trip to Kota Bharu Kelantan...

8.got my dreamed Acis' Keyboard

after several series of searching we finally found the red keyboard at Pertama Complex and abah purchased it...although it was priced RM100++.

9.wearing my first tight jeans

that was the latest fashion. i got that at the Mall..

10.joined the school brass band

i played the clarinet and i also learnt that some guys in there were famous after their scool days..Sham (the singer of Visa), Kudin (drummer of Visa) and our drum major was the keyboardist of Iklim...and azian mazwan..of course the singer. I was also a classmate to Shawn Bahrin's brother

so much to say bout being 13..but actually when i was that age i never dreamt to be 30..i really enjoyed my life though at first i hate the idea of moving to KT. i am a city girl and love all the city things but it proved me wrong when i was there. even now, when in my 30's i always longing to be there again and kept missing the sea...i want to be young again because as i grew older, i realised that i had missed something during my teen life that makes my life lacking of some important traits that i should nurture from my younger days..(yep..sometimes i found my self weird..although i appear normal as my sister claimed). i am tracking back the missing link...to fix myself.

road to revolution..when the time comes forget the wrong that i've done..

guys..listen to this greatest compilation of linkin park:road to revolution live at milton keynes. although live performance, what i could say is two thumbs up as the sound system was excellent plus Chester's high pitched melancholic voice and added synchronous rap by Mike Shinoda and the help of technical hype of Mr Hahn plus Jay Z featuring in numb/encore and faint. numbers should be listened to: one step closer, numb, crawling, in the end, pushing me away and the infamous transformers theme song "what i've done" including my favourite (which also dania's now) "leave out all the rest" from twilight the movie. oh yes..the dvd was tremendous...wished i was there...worth buying!

these guys are really something..they are good at instruments

Crawling in my skin--These wounds they will not heal--Fear is how I fall--Confusing what is real--There's something inside me--That pulls beneath the surface--Consuming, confusing--This lack of self control I fearIs never ending,-- controllingI can't seem to find myself again--My walls are closing in(Without a sense of confidence)(I'm convinced that there's)(Just too much pressure to take)--I've felt this way before so insecure...

the lyrics so much in common with me...somehow

the day we acknowledge a man, a father and dot..dot..dot

certainly 21st june was father's day, i had planned with the girls to buy something for beloved papa...ye la..all this while papa was so occupied with work to feed us therefore we brought something (actually a pair of boxers..hehe..) for him just for a remembrance on this very day..

this is the card we dedicated to him..it was dania's handwriting..pure and innocent made the card looked from the sincererity of the daughters' heart...

i told them to give good pose for papa...yep..they done a good job! it took several shots to get the girls looked happy and natural...peace popsicle!

this cake made from caramel looked so yummy but actually was meant for my father and brother (who is a single father)..papa's cake was more special..oreo cake celebrated together with mom in law's birthday..

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY TO ALL DADS..BE A GOOD DADDY KAY..

at dawn and dusk...

i know it's already too late to say bout twilight the movie...but just want to confess that i just watched it after my final paper...and it really touched my heart. actually i was not attracted at all to watch this 'love a vampire' movie..cliche..like always. love at the first bite..and all that bloody thing makes u an immortal and young forever. but hate to say..i was so wrong..this was a different vampire movie..
i managed to search the book at popular the next morning..and discovered (after several rounds of searching) that twilight is a saga (4 books in a row). the book is thick enough to let me finished it within my semester break. i love the book as the words in the movie are picked from the author's and the story is fast moving though is a bit detailed in describing the situation. being bella swan is not easy, being alone and lonely is really something when a perfect face, intense eye and melodious words enchant you day and night..till you fall in love and the best part you are not afraid that he is a vampire...you want to be with him and let him take you as long as he lived (even bite u on the neck...). but edward who tried to stay away from bella's scent that made him want a bite..can't resist her and found himself in ecstacy of her (can't live without her and can't be far from her). i love the part when he said "i like to watch you when you're asleep.."

never had a dream come true...S Club 7

Everybody's got something they had to leave behindOne regret from yesterday that just seems to grow with timeThere's no use looking back or wonderingHow it could be now or might have beenOh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you goI've never had a dream come trueTill the day that I found youEven though I pretend that I've moved onYou'll always be my babyI never found the words to sayYou're the one I think about each dayAnd I know no matter where life takes me toA part of me will always be with youSomewhere in my memoryI've lost all sense of timeand tomorrow can never be cos yesterday is all that fills my mindThere's no use looking back or wonderingHow it should be now or might have beenOh this I know but still I can't find ways to let you goI've never had a dream come trueTill the day that I found youEven though I pretend that I've moved onYou'll always be my babyI never found the words to sayYou're the one I think about each dayAnd I know no matter where life takes me toA part of me will always beYou'll always be the dream that fills my headYes you will, say you will, you know you willOh baby, you'll always be the one I know I'll never forgetThere's no use looking back or wonderingBecause love is a strange and funny thingNo matter how I try and try I just can't say goodbyeNo no no noI've never had a dream come trueTill the day that I found youEven though I pretend that I've moved onYou'll always be my babyI never found the words to say (words to say)You're the one I think about each dayAnd I know no matter where life takes me toA part of me will always beA part of me will always be with you

p/s:trying to recall whether I ever had S Club 7 album...

aku nangis mlm td...

mana taknye..aku baru dapat tengok citer Sutun 1 lakonan Ku Mohd Yusri Pak Leh sebagai 'adik' budak laki2 yang dilahirkan lembut dan sentiasa menjadi punching bag budak lelaki di sekolahnya...bukan tu aje..bapaknye pun sama macam tak dapat terima kenyataan kurniaan Allah Azza Wajalla. Adik hampir-hampir hilang arah sehinggalah dia bertemu dengan pondan tua lakonan Aziz Sattar yang mengingatkannya supaya melupakan hasrat untuk mengikut jejak langkah kawan pondannya. Memang adik anak yang baik..yang memilukan hati dia menulis surat kepada abahnya supaya bersimpati dengan dirinya dan jangan membencinya. yelah..bapa mana tak sayangkan anaknya..akhirnya si abah memaafkan adik apabila adik tidak jadi lari dari rumah. tetapi surat terakhir adik sangat menyentuh perasaan dan part tragis adik lemas dalam sungai bila selamatkan kawan2 yang jatuh..buat aku nangis tahap gaban..sbb last skali kat kubur tu rupanya mak dia yg meninggal 15 tahun kemudian...ishk..twisted story betoi..akak kena tipu idup2 siap kena gelak ngan hubby sebab nangis kat org yg salah..

Adik ni mengingatkan aku pada seorang kawan lembut masa aku skolah dulu..dia memang lembut..pandai menari pastu siap bawak lipstick ngan compact powder kat skolah..kalah budak pompuan..tapi bestnya kami boleh get along..bukan aku menggalakkannya tapi aku memahaminya..ye la nobody's perfect..even sekarang pun aku ada kawan yang lembut..tapi aku tak kisah sebab manusia begini sebenarnya memang unik dan lebih peka dari lelaki..mereka pun very frank tentang memberi pendapat dan tak menipu just to pleased pompuan. Walaupun aku kekadang perasan mereka ada masalah ngan self esteem..tetapi they are brave enough untuk ketengah...kekadang tu jealous jugak tengok lelaki 'sutun' ni ada kelebihan yang luar biasa such as very artistic and highly imaginative...Sesungguhnya Allah SWT itu Maha Adil..kurang di sini lebih di tempat lain..

p/s: sekarang tengah berjinak nak jadi make up artist...boleh la sket2 untuk nk pegi dinner

my fav shots..

these are some pictures which meant a lot 2 me...especially my two princesses, dania & dhiya..they are growing up to be full blossom girls..i still always like to hug adik's (dhiya) fat stomach as though she's a baby. then, hubby who always supportive to every my 'wannabes' places. the real fact is i'm not the person who stays at home...just being happy hanging out there..i can be easily found at starbucks...(with all the gadgets..). another high profile momento was with my old skool friends..azian mazwan sapuwan and juliana..happy to c u again guys..still looks pretty and hot..(azian wif 7 kids? superb lady!aku dua pun cam nk pengsan..7..nope!!). lastly me in my motherhood days..i still can't believe me...a mother..??i think some who know me can imagine how an outgoer like me being a mother..and still thinking adding a baby to the family..

some of my world tour (of duty) pictures..unrated

thinking of keeping some momento in this blog..coz pictures tend to lose anywhere..everywhere..the only place u can keep safely of course in your mind...but just to share my memorable visit to some places which have significant history or landmark..except for my visit to Germany and Norway..

SAN FRANCISCO, USA

before boarding to Alcatraz Island San Francisco, USA

was here.. Alcatraz "The RocK"

one of the cold cells...teringat citer Escape From Alcatraz..Frank Morris and The Anglin Brothers managed to escape but can nowhere to be found..yeah Clint Eastwood..they still preserved the potato head in one of the cells..

ni gambar masa jln2 lepas naik cable car

GENEVA, SWITZERLAND

The centre of Peace and Unity, The United Nations

Being rep for Malaysia...

touch of abc @ La Fossette..France

WASHINGTON D.C., USA

very symbolic newspaper box..

front or rear of White House?

the US Treasury Building

The Washington Monument

my family caricature..

we visited aquaria on 24th may 2009, it was just a simple plan to entertain the kids as my list to interesting places exhausted..there are not many places actually to rest and relax (not under the hot sun..pls for God's sake..my skin was tanning badly!). once we were out of the fish tank..i mean the tank tunnel, we were thinking of having a momento just like we always did when we were in most of our family vacations. we saw this interesting stall..the caricature stall which we were hunting for all this time...we met this cartoonist..and he did this splendid caricature perfect for our coming soon customised hari raya card..(limited edition). thanks aloy..(sounds familiar)

this is our "cartoon" face..