welcome 2008, bubye 2007..

sweet n sour life of 2007..so what's new resolution for 2008, simple..just do whatever i think best for me and family..practically, i would slowly turn myself to a student and delegating all the hassles of work to my subordinates..talking about getting to 'u' again is making me half dead coz..the exams mania and all the assignments plus the case study..bla..bla..bla..luckily i'll do at local u, so susah2 pon kt negara sendiri la kan..

just to recap project accomplished and sites visited in year 2007..
1. went to san francisco for fta
2. went to karambunai nexus for fta (acc. by hubby)
3. went to siem reap, cambodia for fta (acc. by hubby)
4. went to colmar tropicale resort, bukit tinggi (family vac)
5. went to genting highlands theme park (family vac)
6. went to awana kijal, terengganu (3rd hm)
7. went to langkawi (family vac)
8. awarded hadiah latihan perkhidmatan by JPA
9. passed ptk 3
10. joined fitness centre

golden holidays soon 2008..

1.kuching
2.bali (4th hm)
3.kunming

tertakluk kepada kemampuan...

wannabes at 50...

try to think what will happen in the next 15-20 yrs, especially when u are at the 'golden age' (kalau hidup lagi la...insya Allah). At that time..the most obvious is the attack of wrinkles all over your face and for sure ladies...we are at stake..either we able to sustain or else..however, i hope time would not ahead of me...i have plannings for myself at the age of 50..but it's going to be a big top secret..only the chosen ones will know..i've fascination in life..where health and style would be my inspiration. I wish I could make people indulge in what I'm going to make..

Moreover, I'm planning for the future..where life can't just rely on our pencen..life's gonna be tough..i don't know how my kids will soon become..in a matter of time, age 50 is getting nearer..and the next morning come knocking at my door..going to be somebody..(kah3x..title datin, i always dreamt to be datin to dato' bandar..but that's my husband fate..i don't have any idea on his plannings..perhaps..he too have something in mind..tapi i ni mmg kuat berangan..kwang3x).

It's okay..being a normal person is ok..raising my children and maintaining a marriage life would be my priorities..but i always want to do something i like. the first point to my big project is my master..the first step of business knowledge that i will acquire ( i hope i can benefit much from it..). lastly..i hope i can swim in my own swimming pool and indulge myself in my own reading room..what a blissful life

cheeky chicken feet

chicken feet or kaki ayam(direct translation of berkaki ayam)...that is her signature...however, although i'm not a fan of elyana, after listening to her latest album 'jadi diriku', i'm impressed with this young lad..her voice is captivating and if i didn't know her, i would say she must be in 30's. with music arranged by aidit alfian such as kau atau aku and kalis rindu can jump to be hit songs..while the new arrangement of niat (now niat 2008) have bring her a step higher. she has power in delivering all the songs and definitely it fits her soul..(and mine too...). listening to her would make you feel back at the teen days in university at the time of no doubt, four non-blondes and the cardigans.

it's a worth listening and worth buying album, fresh as her image and cheeky at the same time. so kaki ayam pun..kaki ayam la..janji best!!!

towards a celebrity shape..

with all the hectic life so far this week..i felt that life can never have its rejuvenation process unless we really the 'love your body' type..unfortunately..i'm not that consistent in taking care of my precious body...i'm fat again after managed to lose weight for 3 months from 76-60 kg. i blame myself for not maintaining my healthy lifestyle..i'm back to the 70 kg regime. what will be the most viable plan to keep you slim and healthy at the same time...eating disorder is my fav activity now..since i enjoy skipping lunch at 1 and then i crave for food at 3. that goes for my dinner too, i'm taking lunch at 11p.m or midnight instead of 8pm. i also take antioxidants at day and night but nothing comes out in the morning..something is wrong with the biological clock..going haywire.
on sunday...i discover a new (not that new to anybody) paradigm towards my sick healthy lifestyle...while waiting for dania's class at subang parade...my eyes stuck to the running athlete (in the mall?), not that athlete actually, but the enjoyment of being able to run in a mall without having to feel the hot sun and pollutions but still can sweat gracefully. right...i'm staring at a spacious sophisticated gym named 'celebrity fitness'..hubby and i approached a man named 'ivan' at the gym entrance and we just simply join him to visit each corner of the gym..after 30 minutes of explanation, we signed up (how simple...? am i doing the right thing?). both of us think positive inspite of a quite expensive fees..we need something to boost our energy as well as our relationship..if that's the way to enjoy life together..so be it!my interest of course will be yoga class and the latino dance.
trying to think if that is the lifestyle of modern decade..why not..after all, i need something to motivate my act...if i have paid for it then it should be used wisely...can i get the body of JLo or legs like Cameron Diaz...? that is a second matter..what most important is..can i satisfy my objectives to be there...

am no fashionista but fashion is just so tempting...

craze of life...i wonder what cracks my life so far...it's fashion...i can't help buying fashion magazines everywhere i've been..it's just a matter of fulfilling a hungry and craving soul for famous designers' collection esp..lines of glamorous ladies accessories namely handbags, shoes..bracelet from the infamous names of coach, chanel, dior, ralph lauren, louis Vuitton, etc..ever since I read and watch Devil Wears Prada..fashion is not just walking on the runway..but it is a way to gain self confidence and other people's confidence on you..especially when you walk, people will turn and the self satisfaction will rise..

expensive...? eventually price will be the fear factor of middle class women like me...but there's only one thing u can't seem to avoid - posessing it..if only it can be bought at a reasonable price..what will be the feeling of wearing it??..all designers collection worth more than RM100, just imagine, a small prada clutch worth RM20,xxx..it's just so unbelievable..who will buy it..of course there are buyer to these 'more than meet the eye' labels..practically, you can wear it if you are brave enough to buy the so called 'replica' or layman terms 'duplicate' of the original..my friend always ask me,'are you really wearing LV...well I said, who cares bout it..what matter is..who's wearing it..if you're really confident with what you are wearing, people won't doubt you..just get the taste of holding a chanel or LV by your side..or walking with Gucci or Jimmy Choo shoes..replica or what...what the heck..?!

So girls and guys..don't be afraid to be the victims of fashion...you won't regret it..it's just how wise we are in making choices..if you are a personality with no go of replicas..buy ori..if not...replica..imitation..so be it..I'm not supporting pirates of intellectual property, but at least..i have the chance to feel how to be part of a top notch..excuse me..please don't label me ms replica..i still protect some areas in buying ori products for example skin care products and make up..and those lingeries..pls la..x kan semua nak tiruan kan..

however..i would like to describe..being part of fashion..is just so amazing!i keep hunting for bleecker leather patchwork COACH handbag (pic)..just wait n see

happy birthday deqma!

today my second child, dhiya celebrates her 2nd birthday..this morning we sang her happy birthday song and she still in her baby mode..the only person that is so excited about birthday is dania and she requested me to buy mickey mouse birthday cake and presents...tonight we are going out to celebrate her birthday plus nasib baik gaji is in..I also thanked Allah for His blessings, I passed my PTK3 exam..so I can have a good leave in August next year...PTK4..later la.. this picture was taken a day after she came to this world..so serene..

epidemic of the year

everything went wrong this week when I got my fever on Monday and I took mc for 2 'hell' days. I thought I was the only person being infected and on Tuesday my hubby complained that he got fever...last night dania and this morning, dhiya...nasib baik bibique is ok..O please jgn la ko sakit bibique..why i call it epidemic of the year b'coz everybody is sick in the house..so far this year it's just me who always fell sick..I guess I had spread the germs..today hubby wants us to spend a night at his mother's house...I hope nobody in the house will be infected...teringat pulak cerita kalau ada benda pelik2 jatuh ke bumi..pas tu mesti ada orang pakai topeng ngan baju putih2..mcm citer e.t. and blob..

my dania goes to playskool...

last saturday was her fisrt day in tumble tots Subang Parade. Well, she was so excited about skool and didn't mind of not being accompanied. She always asks me about going to school and for the hundreth times, I managed to send her there. However, dhiya will join next year due to her 'natural talent' of having her own world and seldom listen to instructions. I feel day by day my babies are growing so fast and I miss their adorable and cute baby moves. This picture was taken when she was 1. She is so cheeky that I cannot believe she already in school...so, how bout new baby ha..papa?nah...2 years lagi ye..

audrey..ohhh...audrey

dear guys...

please don't be pissed off with my new appearance...kenapa aku pilih audrey to represent me instead of alicia keys..i just think that audrey suits me better, well she has a rare beauty that captured the world..ye la kalau x, takkan org dok banding2 artis yg cantik dengan kecantikan audrey hepburn ni..amin, i'm sure u agree with me..just now i read make up tips mcm audrey..x payah la susah2 nk jd mcm dia..cukup la jujur dan yang penting sentiasa bersangka baik pada orang lain..that's the inner beauty yg sebenarnya akan mencantikkan wajah tu..jgn percaya pada pelakon cantik mcm rozita che wan yang berlakon watak antagonis dlm susuk..cantik tapi jahat...(no such thing jahat but beauty will prevail..). Caller pagi tadi pon ckp.."rozita..u x sesuai la watak maya tu..sbb dia jahat tp muka u sweet". So beauty comes from the heart eh..tgk audrey hepburn citer2 yg dia belakon mmg sesuai ngan dia cam sabrina, breakfast at tiffany..etc

from the bottom of my heart

thank you everybody for spending some time at our house last saturday (27/11/2007). i knew that some of you had trouble to find my house (plus the pak guard's trivia questions..). I felt happy and satisfied that most of you were able to fulfill your empty stomach with my nasi lemak ayam berempah (catering by aina of cukai), my special laksa asam (i don't know what is the grading..?) and rendang ayam (import..). some repeated for 3 or 4 times (can't believe it..the same meal man...). anyway..i manged to distribute half of the meal to the guests and the other quarter to my mother in law and the neighbour and another quarter to the tong sampah..(too much or too little?)

Amin, thanks for the denim sling bag..although no 'Guess' I appreciate it and dah pakai pun..
Next year I will do rumah terbuka lagi..Although a small hut, I want to share happiness with you guys..I just love having friends around. My daughter so teruja with the lampu kelip2..at least my house nampak mcm raya mode...Friends please come whenever free..to those yang tak datang..please come next year..

now and then....

nurin's brutal murder is still fresh in our mind...and now rekha, 10 year old pupil follow the same fate (hopefully not..). she was believed to be out alone to buy vcd (parents...please la learn from nurin...) and was not back home till midnight. his step father lodge police report and now the mother who is working during the incident is going crazy..if you look at both faces, they have similarities (mamak face..anak mami). poor girl..but parents..please 100x remember, don't let the predators caught our girls first. be alert. GIRLS are not meant to be alone! nurin's murderer is still at large probably laughing by seeing this traumatic news. please don't keep quiet and buat dono on this serious matter..dunia dah nak kiamat. take care of your posession with all your heart. never ever neglect it even one second..

happy birthday darling...

today...my sweet hubby is 32...last 2 days he kept calling me 'kak' but since 12 a.m, I declared that we are in the same boat...I managed to buy a present for him..(burberry summer..smells nice). This week and next are tough times for him as PTK3 is occupying his life...but I have no worries on him b'coz he is a smart man...in any aspects of life (kan papa...?). I wish you all the best in your PTK and hope you can pass the exam with flying colours (as usual..). The picture was taken during his golf tournament in NZ, so guess who is next to him (looks familiar huh?!..)

This morning, tingkat 7 cukai held a majlis sambutan hari raya. All sort of ketupat and rendang are there and I just ate a little bit here and there...my headache is annoying and now I feel like ...ok miss go back to work..my lazy and cozy hari raya fever is still around..Please la..malas go away..nanti makan gaji buta pulak...

my dearie friends...(excluding the cake etc..)

happy birthday to me...part 2

yesterday my wonderful friends, AJ, INA, AMIN & TAUFIQ bought me lunch at Secret Recipe Alamanda. I manged to 'pinjam' Amin's cake (Celebrity cake by Hannah T) and he put 3 candles which signify I am 3 yrs old (he..he..). We had great time there and later I bought the Hannah T cake for me & hubby.

Thank you guys...u light up my life...

Last night my sister came with a present...a very exclusive hand-made bracelet (actually it is made for her..). I cooked mi goreng and then my hubby and I blew candles on our Hannah T cake...

I bought a present for myself.. a book "Child of Darkness" by Virginia Andrews. It's been a long time I left Virginia Andrew's collection as well as Sidney Sheldon's. I love books with characters I can never imagined. I mean, people have a very creative mind and can let you feel the character. But some characters are so difficult that it needs you to understand them deeper...

So what is your favourite books and character ?

happy birthday to me...

it's my birthday again...but of course the year keeps increasing. I'm 32 and next 2 days my hubby follow suit. last nite i got my birthday present...a bracelet..from my sweet hubby..thank god he remembered my birthday without fail. my dania gave me a big present too, her stomach contents and a painful scream (papa buat jari dia tersepit...). anyway, tq guys...great gifts..

Also I would like to thank my loyal officer, Sharmila for the 'glamourous' shawl she gave me. I definitely will wear it...think to buy a suitable dress to match it..

Anyway, this year will always be like any other year...i'm getting tua (or wiser?), trying to keep my focus on family and work..

This morning I got nice surprise from my sweet and dedicated assistants...flower in a pot (sorry can't view pic)..thanks sharm & aiena..so sweet of you..(feel like crying)..and then my gorgeous friend Amin walked in (in style..as usual..) with a present (a japanese cloth..like the one u find at the entrance of sushi restaurant..). And then my 'kamcing' friend AJ, would like to buy lunch only for ME..(the others who follow have to pay on ur own...). I never had so much surprises in life like today...Alhamdulillah..

My sister Maiza also wished me today..Thanks..at least ko ingat birthday aku..

Yesterday, when I walked to my car, I just simply said to myself, it's ok if nobody says anything on my birthday...probably I am already old enough to accept any surprises..but today..it's just the opposite..so guys, better hope for the worst..

the sign

water...indicates who scorpions is...the passionate lover, agressive and courageous..i married a scorpio and according to the compatability signs excerpts...

"When two Scorpions make a love match, it is a fierce tempest of intense passion. Both are obsessed with one another, and they move forward in love, sex and romance at an accelerated -- some would say foolish -- way. Personal relations are positively steamy but, to the equal and opposite extreme, disputes will also be frenetically powerful. This relationship could go either way: It will either be the most wonderful thing in the world or a destruction of both involved.
The romantic merger of two sexy Scorpions can bring out the best in both love mates; each will use their intense emotional and intuitive natures to love their partner very deeply. Resolve and passion will keep these two together. The most powerful and threatening external forces will have a difficult time intruding on the happiness of a truly committed Scorpio couple. If they can wrangle their ardent energies, this power pair can set off fireworks."

How true is true...

too good to be true....

Assalamualaikum....

I always longed to pen few words since I left this hobby almost a decade...

the only difference is that, this time, my thoughts can read and reached by everybody...which means..i'll be sharing the dark secrets of me...till i found the light that brought me up to where I am..BUT please don't think that I have perfect life...the pain is always there...

I am a dreamer eversince I was a child...never thought of having such complicated life (as what is now). I still remember I want to become a princess (and acting like one..), pretending to be beautiful and sweet, I like to dance (especially ballet although I never attend any ballet class), talking alone (most kids do this). As life goes on..and I moved from punky brewster era(remember this cartoon?) to a (freak?..) . No idea of what is happening to myself, i just follow the flow, trying to find my own personality (with no destiny). Funny to think how my evolution stage taken place each day with one day 'I want to be superb' and the next day 'back-to-normal'.

Is that normal?..I don't know if any of you out there facing the same experience...i collected a lot of bitter memories, which supposedly be left behind and gone with wind. The memories are like curse and poison to my soul, I wish I could remove it, but the harder I try, the worst it becomes. I am a self-healer, I'll swallow the pain and cure my soul at the same time (sounds like myth huh?). But I don't want my blog becomes a limbo to your lost souls..let this blog let u share your dark secrets as well so that we can hear each other deeply. The place that can never be reached can now be heard, seen and most important...be touched.

By sharing and learning each others experience and crazy moments (please don't be shy..), we are actually surfacing our true personality and can mirror each other of mistakes that we have and will be done. Let us learn a good lesson to make a better self for the people around us..I thought I was better than anyone else..but HELL NO! I am a serial offender in the circle of life..I wonder how could that happen eventhough you been caught all the time..